The next two weeks was a complete shocker.... Many of the ppl whom i thought were my closest friends and my trust mates ripped me apart in many ways then one...It proved how they manipulated me and used me for a period of one year in many ways. they broke the trust, the bonds and all the loyalty i showed for them. For them i was an opportunity to be used and for me they were friends to the core. I was trying my level best to live up to their expectations and their needs, investing a hell lot of emotions and what happened? .... all down the drain not because they could not do anything for me, but for the reason that they used me like a tissue and continue using me more and more...
I have realized a lot of things. When i first joined the college one year back, I was very uptight and speaking very less. Did not want to get involved in the politics of life as a student and their personal issues. But then i realized that i need to share and care and show emotions. Finally when i started doing that ppl took advantage of me and i never even realized since i blindly trusted them. Never asked them questions, took everything they told me for granted and was trying my best but they kept manipulating me for their needs and wishes.
Alas!!! what are friends for? I ask this question to myself and then i ponder: are they really my friends and is the time that i am spending thinking about them and missing them worth it?? That is why i have decided to be my normal self... The old Gopal... Who cared a damn about any one and had a free will...
TODAY I FREE MYSELF FROM ALL THE BONDS AND EMBARK ON A NEW JOURNEY....A journey where i trust myself and i try to be the best for myself... Realized that it is always ONESELF whom you have to put in perspective and live for that... So that is what i am going to do from now on..
I will be joining work in a week's time and hope all this pain and hurt would go off and I would be normal again working as i used to earlier. It will take time but TIME IS THE BEST HEALER AND I HAVE TO GIVE ENOUGH TIME AND SPACE FOR MYSELF TO OUTGROW FROM THESE AND BE A HONEST AND TRUSTWORTHY PERSON... atleast to myself..
Finally i would like to end this post on a cheerful and high note with a couple of pictures from "MY BEST FRIENDS WEDDING"... NO not the movie but the real wedding of my best friend Anand Jayachandran... I Would like to wish the couple a happy and properous married life... It was an awesome wedding with great traditions and excellent food... The best way to end my student life...
Love all the folks who support me in this time of need and hurt... Will miss you more than ever.. The final thing i would like to say is there is nothing more than TRUST, LOYALTY, DEDICATION, SINCERITY and HONESTY that make a person SUPREME... Would die even if i have to let go of any one of those qualities that i have...
Farewell friends, fiends and all those who hurt me
GOPAL (still the perfectionist)
